Why did I decide to create this website? Because there is a cruel lack of information to get help when you are a pedophile, which is still my case, even if for my part, my pedophilia is now under control, because I have set up a system of locks to block this bad part that is in me. This system consists of repeating the word « Pedophile » to myself when I am in the presence of children. I specify that my attraction does not concern young boys but only young girls.
Today, I am proud to have this control over my own thoughts, even if the attraction is still there. However, when I write this article, I have still not been able to test whether this attraction could be transformed into something repulsive through hypnotherapy, which is a huge hope. Here is the article that explains this possibility
https://www.journaldemontreal.com/2017/06/03/lhypnose-pour-traiter-les-pedophiles
For my part, my pedophile attraction has always been there even if it started slowly around my 25s. I did not make this choice to be a pedophile overnight, so I was one innately, but on the other hand I did make this sordid choice to search for and find incestuous child pornography images and videos in which there were also very young babies, and to have a sexual encounter in Belgium with a 14-year-old girl, when I was 29.
At the time of these first downloads, I was convinced that I was not totally illegal, but I preferred to take my precautions by using a VPN system, which is a private download tunnel. So I could download without being identified by the police. And then, to tell the truth, I was in such disarray with multiple health problems, that I didn’t think about the legal consequences at all. So I lived this pedophilia incognito, while having almost normal romantic relationships, because my first 3 relationships, I chose them out of spite, because of my pathological shyness. So I got into a relationship with women that I didn’t really like. My first real romantic encounter was at 36. But that didn’t stop me from continuing to find pleasure in incestuous child pornography content, until a few months ago, when I decided to delete everything because I had remorse.
I always looked much younger than my age. That’s what made me look much less at 46. I always took at least 10 years off when I tried to talk to girls in chat rooms. I was so shy that I was unable to meet an adult woman in real life.